February 2011
January 2011
Every Little Word
every little word you say kills me every little thing you do stabs me like a knife every single step you make is a imprint on my soul and i cant take it. i’ve exploded and there is no way for you to reverse it. so i hope your happy. i hope your happy mother. because you, you are the reason for the mess of a daughter you made
hate.
I sware to god. one day im going. im leaving this fucking place and i will NOT return you’re making all the wrong decisions in life not me. i fucking hope you go to hell and i mean that.
either that or im going. because i can not stand one more day in this hell hole
and i KNOW that here is a worse place then when i pass so why not just speed up the process? I hate you so much and when im...
“I’d give anything, but i wont give up on you. i’d say anything. but...”
– Train its ironic because, i did say goodbye :/
My Life
this. this right here is my life and you can talk all you want and try to make the decisions for me. try to change my mind. TRY IT. because its not going to work. its my heart, its my mind its my spirit and i can run free if i want to.
My life is made by the decisions that I choose to make and if you dont like my decisions shut the fuck up because your opinion is actually pretty much shit to me...
“Where you go i’ll go
Where you stay i’ll stay
When you move...”
– Chris Tomlin
When you want it the most there’s no easy...
Cloudy with a chance of Memory
Even if im just a memory a 2nd thought in the back of your mind Just know, You’re always on my mind and i will never forget you because every moment i’ve ever spent with you was perfect. we may not talk anymore but when i see you, i get this feeling in my stomach and it never goes away. i know i made a mistake
Just know, you’ll forever be in my heart no matter what ever...
Duh
Simple. Making friends
Easy. Making enimies
Hard. Keeping the ones you love
Live your life the way YOU want to, Not the way other people say you should Don’t Conform, ever Be Yo’ Self
“I miss you more than you know”
– Zacky Walch <3
“when I say brother, I don’t mean, like, an actual brother, but I mean it...”
– Derek Zoolander
“I know we’re heading for disaster. But I keep running faster, and faster....”
– Victoria Proulx my dearest friend
Blind
Can you not see behind my eyes there’s tears of sorrow Can you not see behind my smile there’s a frown, it shows Can you not see the facade i put on, like a mask it hides my fears Can you not see every breath is part of a sigh You’re obviously blind because if you could see me you’d see i’m crying every day if you could see me i never wipe the sadness away if you...
Split
I’m about to crack and i honestly dont know what to do. my life has been spiraling down a never ending mountain and there is absolutely no way to put me back on the right tracks
i dont know weather to cry or laugh about this my brain feels as-if i’ve entered a battle zone during the Vietnam war Im about to go on overload but there’s no emergency stop button the iron rope that...
“i mistook our endless conversations, your sweet texts, the compliments, and our...”
– Facebook <3
“I thought with my Head, instead of thinking with my Heart. and that my dear...”
– Karen Carpenter
“There are 6 billion people in the world and I managed to meet you… ♥ i...”
– ChristianFailla
Once a Week
Once a Week My Day rolls along. that day has been the highlight of my week since the 6th grade
Now i have to deal with the Caddy-ness of these dumbshits i call my peers. and all the shit that comes out of their esophagus’s. If ever there was permanent duct tape that never came off, there would never be a more perfect time to use it. just because you dont get your way doesnt mean you get to...
Self Inflicted Pain
I know that I will never get this twice With all negotiations
I’ll tell myself, I don’t need you I’ll tell myself enough to get me through But I’ll finally show you how I should have been being with you every day
I’ll tell myself I’ll make it through I’ll tell myself anything to get over you I’ll tell myself that I never needed anybody Even Though
I need you
Self Inflicted
“You don’t choose who you fall in love with, but when it happens it happens...”
– Ashton Kutcher <3
Runaway
Its only a matter of time…
I’ve planned this since i was in the 2nd grade I made my mind up in the 4th grade and today my mind was set straight. im doing it when i turn 16. no one is going to stop me just get in the car, and go go far away. as far as i can go i wont stop until i reach the horizon and i wont look back and regret a thing
Get away
If I could ride this slide into forever What would I give to getaway That pain that stayed Seemed like forever What would you give to getaway I know this is how I could be over you You know this is not another waste of time All this holding on can’t be wrong Just come back to me and I am not alone You had your man your fan but not forever You should have let him You should have...
Tied together with a smile
hold on baby you’re losing it the waters high you’re jumping into it letting go and no one knows that you cry but you dont tell anyone you might not be the golden one
and you’re tied together with a smile but you’re coming undone
props to T-Swift for writing my life into a song
tied together with a smile
hold on baby you’re losing it the waters high you’re jumping into it letting go and no one knows that you cry but you dont tell anyone you might not be the golden one
and you’re tied together with a smile but you’re coming undone
props to T-Swift for writing my life into a song well that basically describes me my life is lived with a smile and sarcastic remarks hiding...
“I’ll say goodbye to love, no one ever cared if i should live or die”
– Karen Carpenter
Pointless
have you ever just had so much burden on your heart you just wanted to drop on the floor and let god just strike you down
thats me. every day
i look around at all the people, they all have their friends im just like the pathetic person who sits to the side i’ve done that you know, i sit in the corner and i cry. no one notices, no one seems to care for the most part i like it like that its...
The Time of My Life
“i’ve had the time of my life” 7 absolutely horrid words. you know why? because once you’ve had the time of your life everything else in life just goes way downhill and you spiral into a deep depression because YOU KNOW, God you know that things will never be the same now dont you just wish you could keep that moment. cut it out of the timeline of your life and carry it in...
“Disney Finds the perfection in imperfection.
Fantasy.
Thats why i still watch...”
– Me
Worthless
To Me
Life just isnt worth it. its not worth waking up in the morning and having to face a world you know doesnt accept you back its not worth having a mother who you know prays for a better daughter its not worth living in this world where tragic things happen to unsuspecting people its not worth putting on a smile when on the inside your heartbroken its not worth pretending to care for people...
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Life gave me lemons
My heart broke today,
out of all of the days it could break, it chose to break today i dont entirely know why. Maybe its because the most perfect boy i’ve ever known moved even further away than he already did. Maybe its because of a picture i saw of a rather attractive couple. Maybe its because of the fact that my life just really sucks and every aspect of it just turns...
WatchYou gave me all your love, and all i gave you was goodbye
Seeing IS believing
Hearing about something is hard. it’s absolutely terrible when its bad but you dont really think too much of it its just kinda there.
but then. you see it then your heart drops because, HEY your worst fear just became a reality so you better freaking wake up and smell the wilted roses
because your life, is never going to be the same agian. then reality strikes you. and you start crying,...
“In the lime-light i play it off fine
but i cant handle it when i turn off my...”
– Ke$ha
Simple life.
The life of a teenager is freaking horrible
my life in that fact kind-of sucks BIG TIME
but with me,
i dont particularly like showing my feelings to the world
Yea, Yea, Yea, i hear it all the time
Bottling up your emotions gets you nowhere
BUT the truth is hiding your emotions
that gets you far in life
so as i walk down the hallways in...
Forgive and Forget
if you’ve ever made a decision and regretted it, Forget about it
it only breaks your heart and hurts more the more and more you think about it
Life goes on, So be it but when you regret things, you regret them forever
So Forgive yourself and go on with life :)
This would be the Story. Of. My. Life
“It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing that I’d realized...”
– Taylor Swift
Sleepless not in Seattle
I CANT SLEEP someone save me.
OH RIGHT noone reads my tumblr and when i say noone i mean you too because you dont really mean anything to me
you’re like roadkill on the road of my life Story Of My Life?
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